The Phylth files.

The Police

Howdy all, another post about the useless state of Britain.

There’s more nonsense in the news about Police Brutality at the G20 protests today.  To be perfectly honest if you were fucking stupid enough to protest anyway you deserve a beating. BUT I can understand their being a problem with the police being violent to passers by it is perhaps a little too much. But why complain about it.

I grew up in a small mining village called Catchgate where intimidation by the “big families” acting like mafias in the village was normal, where you had to be in a gang to be free of this sort of thing and were vandalism and minor criminal offences were commonplace, but the police never did anything. Now Fifteen years on and I’m out of the village (thank god) It’s turned into the Arsehole of the Derwentside District. Those Minor Criminal offences have turned into violent crime and retaliation, to drug trafficing, selling, use, addiction and where those mafias have spun out of police control into the control of the village as their own power base. And, as I said, the Police can do nothing about it now.

So, all these people complaining that police are being “Brutal” or “heavy handed” are taking the piss. If the Police get anymore soft the criminals will have already won, theres already too much red tape tying their hands behind their backs and stopping them from doing their job, which is to keep these same people who complain about them, safe from harm or criminals.  The Police in London are what is needed to discipline this country.

But this is what Britain has become a miserable old woman who’s never happy unless she’s complaining about something. The nation which built the worlds Biggest Empire, which fuelled the Industrial Revolution, which prides itself on democracy, freedom of speech and equality, has squandered that all away into a pathetic Politically correct moron with a giant government tongue depressant in his mouth to stop him speaking all together for fear someone will take offence, covered in bubble wrap, not because he might hurt himself, but because he might hurt others. Not just Physically either but emotionally. And even if he could talk he’d just take pot shots at everything which ensures his way of life, like the police and the military. Who complains that police arent firm enough with criminals when gangs beat up ambulance drivers and firemen and vandalise their equipment, then in the same breath berate them for being “too firm”.

Mark my words, we have the unfortunate honor of living through a black period in British History.

Something has to change.

LATE!

No, I didnt miss my period. I missed my saturday update, but then I suppose thats a good thing, as I wouldnt have all my tales from last night and about the wierd dream I had when i got home and into bed.

I’ll start off with the night out, we hit the town pretty hard last night, for all it was quite quiet. Basement was fairly empty and full of younglings, Trills was half full of the usual crowd, but Legends was where it was at. Aside from the good music, the barmaid wearing a tiny boob tube AGAIN, matty’s stoner mate being off his tits, thrashing to Slayer in the middle of the dance floor on my own, thinking I was still with Nick and Matty, stacy being in a cute little Maid’s outfit, her amazingly gorgeous friend in a corset with the nose piercing being smolderingly gorgeous. drinking apple sourz between bottles of becks. and that was just the night out, goin back to the van marty was runnin down the street in hannah’s high heel boots and hanging outta the window of the van driving through town screaming that he loved strangers. Listening to Huey Lewis and singing at the top of my voice oblivious to the massive hang over i was going to have today!

I mentioned a wierd dream too, it was fairly odd. I was meeting a girl named Lucy’s parents for the first time and they read my previous posts about Great Britain and thought I was an epic racist. Then I got on a long haul flight to New York and the plain was gigantic. I dont just mean those big trans atlantic planes, it was like a shopping mall with wings and down on the run way there was this guy throwing seals into oil slicks in the water surrounding the airport!

Wierd I know, I said so myself. And Yes I am drunk while writing this! So enjoy this weeks update for all its useless pointless vanity!

Stay Safe Folks
Phil

updates

Hey its saturday again, and here comes my first steps at making this a weekly thing. Famous last words huh?

My post this week wont be as epic or political as last weeks i don’t think. I don’t know anyone who reads this anyways so this has just become my sort of personal little diary thing / rant space. So! lets crack on.

I went out on thursday night to the pub for a big knees up with everyone who used to hang out together, but were dispersed by Uni and break downs in relationships and all kinds of stuff. We lost the pub quiz but we won the play your cards right, yeah! It was interesting to see how people have changed. Some were cute, some were shaven others were a pain in the arse still. but I suppose thats the gamble you take when you go out with an extended group of friends.

I just had a discussion last night with Bekki aswell about how shoes cost as much, or why…we didnt conclude anything, we just moaned that a few bits of material to keep your feet from getting cut up cost so much. Necessity costs? hmpf. Have a think about that one.

Lastly, I’m back to work today, should be good I’m all refreshed and rearing to go earn my meagre pay. Then Tomorrow again too, I’m not even sure what hours I’m working tomorrow, hopefully it’ll be 10-5 though. After that my plans for the week ahead? look for re-enactment groups in the northeast saxon/dane or possibly napoleonic. also need to schedule a trip to the optician again to get my contact lenses all sorted out and paid for. Well not much food for thought for you this week but hopefully its been at least a little bit interesting.

Stay safe folks
BP

"Great" Britain or United Kingdom?

A debate that has come to mean alot more for me. In recent weeks, talking to an american friend of mine, I have become alot more aware of my nationality. The news now means alot more to me when I read it for instance.  Well News as a concept has even caught my awareness.

Recently in the UK there was a march by soldiers returning home from the middle east, which was marred by a protest by muslims holding signs calling the soldiers “butchers and murderers”.  I struggle to put into words the fury this caused in me. These People have come to our country for alot of reasons, liberty? freedom of speech so they can say these things? fine yes…but spitting hate at the men who ensure they have those things is idiocy.  The whole fucking lot of them should have been packed up and sent back to whichever backwater fucking middle east state they came from.
You might be thinking “Christ Phil, careful, you’ll be joining the BNP next”. Perhaps…if the BNP actually intends to ACT, you know ACTION, insert adjectives here and all that. Gordon Brown is proving he is too piss scared of doing anything to protect the British People and British Culture against these haters, for fear it will enrage them more. David Cameron is too fucking liberal so probably wouldnt even SEE the problem there, nevermind fix it. Our culture, our national Identity is under attack from foreigners coming into this nation then complaining that our culture doesnt accept them? So we change the way we live to make sure that their culture is accepted, at the cost of our own. Fucking rediculous, hardcore muslim states like Iran dont tolerate this kind of thing, so why should we? Because we are above them? Nonsense, if someone has a fucking problem with our culture the solution is simple, get the fuck out, nobody is keeping you here but yourself so piss off back to your own country and stop complaining about ours, Its Britain, I won’t say Great Britain because its a long time since we have been Great and given the nature of the rant it wouldnt be proper to say we are a Great Nation when we are incapable of defending what makes us Great - our National Identity. 

We have been a democratic, religiously tolerant state for almost 400 years. This doesnt mean you can come here expecting to get special treatment, it just means you wont be treated any different to protestants, catholics, methodists, jews or any other sect, coven, faith that exists within the bounds of British law and culture. This concept seems to have been lost in recent years during this new war on terror. I’d imagine its for fear that any slight against the cultures from the middle east which exist in Britain could easily have their anger or discontent turned towards us by radicals and terrorist cells. There is a simple solution to this problem piss off out of the UK. It is my personal belief that Religious Dissidents within the UK, not of british HERITAGE should be returned to wherever it is they do hail from.

My anger isnt just directed towards Muslims however. There has been news that there will be protests within the UK against the G20 summit, which Gordon Brown has said, intends to tackle the problem of the economic down turn. Guess why the people have chosen to protest agains the summit? (It’s not hard given my rant so far has been primarily about hypocrisy) They are protesting because the summit is going to cost £19million during a recession? Are these people for real? They are protesting against a potential fix for the problems they are protestsing for? It’s like saying you want a doctor to heal a wound then getting angry at him for doing it? Idiocy and Hypocrisy of the highest order.  They are protesting against a meeting of men and women who have the power and desire to change the problems in the world from the economy to global warming. It just doesnt make any sense to me what so ever.
I wouldnt say I’m learned, and given the degree of idiocy presented by “the learned class” involved in these protests I’m not sure I want to be. Another flaw in our Great Nation.

The last problem on my agenda; Jade Goody. Yes she has died, yes I should show my respect but I can’t. I didn’t know her personally, I only know she was a total idiot who became famous for how stupid she is. This, in my opinion, reflects upon the people who were lapping up her dying drivel and splashing it all over the news, and on the people who read it/watched it/listened to it.  From the get go, I always felt strongly against what was going on. OK so she wanted to ensure her Children had the money to grow up into the youth she never had, its a quality and goal very admirable for a British person but i dont agree with how she went about it; the only way she knew how of course.

I could go on and on about this binge drinking “culture” in the UK, about teenage pregnancy, about obesity, and benefit fraud, about childhood delinquency, and gang “culture” but I dont have the time or the patience in this sitting and If you’ve gotten this far reading, I’m not sure you’d be bothered to go further.

So i’ll sign off here with this; Britain is no longer great, so we MUST be a United Kingdom.

Stay Safe folks
Phil.

World of Warcraft.

It’s like marmite I guess, you either love it or you hate it. For the past 3 years I’ve played this game, spent hundreds of pounds to play it infact and what have I gotten out of it? A handful of online friends certainly but other than that not alot, a few pixels that made my virtual character virtually a bit more powerful, so he could be virtually raped over and over again by other virtual people who had virtually better gear or skill?

I know what you’re thinking, “You paid hundreds of pounds to play that shit?”. Truth is yes, I did. It used to be a cool way to relax and unwind at first, levelling my character a bit, seeing progression as their equipment got better and pushed for that ultimate, level 60 then 70 and now 80, the top level. But most of all it was chatting with the people I’d “met” on the game. There was always plenty to talk about with regards to each persons respective country having this or that happen. But recently it’s gone a bit quiet, and I’ve realised I was only playing for the community. The other stuff was just to keep me busy while I talked and now I can only find negative points about the game as it stands. Sure Wrath of the Lich King ( the current expansion for the game ) was exciting at first with all its new content and achievements and the mighty Death Knight class to play as but the lustre of it wore off after about a month or two. I mean, getting used to the Death Knight took some time with it being a new and different way to play. And the new Vehicle system was interesting for about five minutes till you understood how it worked. Then there was all the new dungeons and heroic dungeons. Interesting enounters some of them, but nothing that has stunned me or impressed me. So what about achievements? They were and still are kinda fun for me, because I’m a perfectionist, I want my achievement log to be full of all the achievements.

So the game itself isnt particularly amazing anymore. It stunned me at first, but it didnt drop me to the mat, and so now i’ve had time to recover my senses and realise overall I’m not particularly impressed by it. Sure it has its moments like when you spell reflect a polymorph or deathgrip or when you get that little ding that tells you, you’ve made an achievement, but without the community, for me, its not a particularly good game. I’ll probably get flamed by all the gamers out there who might find this but there is and always has been class imbalance in the game, and its generally the stronger classes who will say “L2P” or “stop QQing” simply because they dont realise how difficult, nay impossible it can be to kill their class. Or based on one experience where a well geared, well skilled player has managed to JUST overcome them, THEY whine that they arent anywhere near Over Powered. But nevermind thats turning into a rant, and I dont want this post to be like that.

So As I was saying. The community was there, and the RP was fun but over time its just sort of frittered away into nothing-ness to the point where I was just logging on to loads of messages saying things like “My character just found out what you did and he’s pissed and is going to kill you” or other such comments. Now by way of explanation, my character is an evil bastard who does evil things by trade so I take it for granted that most of the world hates him - ie, I don’t need millions of people pestering me and nagging me to say they hate my characters guts or want to kill him or whatever. And the only people I did want to RP with are on the other side of the fence now. So! It usually goes like this, I log on, get my usual death threats and such out of the way, stare at the auctioneer while I get the customary “Hello how are you?”  said to the people who barely talk anymore. try and find people who want to RP with me, all half a dozen or so of them. Then think to myself “well i cant be bothered to do anything so I’m going to watch a DVD” and end up logging off more bored than I was when I logged on. And of course no one on MSN wants to talk because they’re all in game enjoying it.

Well thats about all I can think to say on the subject for now, I just feel my “Warcraft era” has ended and hopefully it’s grip on me will be loosened enough for me to get out and start taking responsibility for my Real Life. It’ll be hard I guess and I’ll lose touch with alot of my e-friends I suppose, but life is a bigger better game than Warcraft is - At least I stand a fighting chance against rapists in the real world.

well thats this months over and done with, maybe with free time i’ll try and make this a weekly thing.
Stay Safe Folks
Phil

Devotion and Weakness

Ok so I read story in the news today about a Doctor sueing his wife in their divorce for 1.5 million dollars, because he had donated a kidney to her, while they were married.
The story went on to explain that the husband suspected his wife of sleeping with another man outside the marriage. It went further to explain that the Wife was also keeping him from seeing their kids, of which they had three. Now this got me to thinking about some of my previous relationships and what could have led to this point in THEIR relationship. Now, I’ve had some real doozies, my first real relationship being the big bad wolf of them all, I think i may have explained it in a previous post, but i digress (as usual).

I was discussing this with Rachel on msn and she was of the opinion that the guy was doing it so he had something to hold against her, to use if anything happened. I tried to explain that looking at it that way suggests the woman had the problem if her opinion was the same. But more so that she couldnt really have that kind of opinion of her husband since we only knew he WAS going to use it against her out of this court case.

I said that he could have simply been doing it out of devotion to his wife, and we got into this big verbal brawl about the affair and the reason the woman had been driven to another man and I thought about a similar experience of mine.  How Devotion can be seen by some as weakness in a person. that they’d bend over for a person. and i kind of got the conclusion that the failure of the marriage COULD very well be her fault if she was of that opinion.

Devotion should never be interpreted as weakness by a partner, as it suggests they look at the relationship the wrong way and they want their partner to be strong and perhaps he is strong, but he is utterly devoted, and because she only sees weakness in devotion she seeks strength elsewhere. As if their partners devotion gives them free rein to do what (or who) they want.
And I got to thinking about how I was the same, and still am at times. It just bred such an anger in me, such self loathing and loathing towards the person that put me in that position for making me feel like less of a person simply because i loved them.  Selfishness is something I can live with, its a part of modern life unfortunately, but being selfish at someone elses expense is abhorrent (yes i realise all selfishness is at another persons expense but doing it because you think have good reason to is detestible). the famous cliche “having your cake and eating it too” comes to mind, and when someone says that regarding relationships I always think to myself “I hope you stuff your fat fucking face with enough of that cake that you choke on it”. And this case to me just seems like the husband is sharing the same point of view. That she was trying to have her cake and eat it to, and now he’s giving her an extra large slice to choke on.

but who knows. maybe im completely off the mark with regards to their situation but its given me the chance to think about my opinions on relationships and people cheating.

Well thats another one over and done with,
Stay safe folks
Phil.

New post.

Yet again im starting a blog post with the words “so i havent posted anything for a while”. I apologise, life has been a bit hectic between Birthdays, friends going through break ups and going to Uni, and working over christmas its been pretty bad.

Im not here to talk about all that though. I’m here today to talk about why people think they can bitch and piss and moan about people, then mimick their actions almost perfectly.

It’s going to be hard to talk through this without mentioning names. but lets say person A and B are friends. Person A makes a new friend in Person C. Person A and C become very good friends and Person A thinks something might happen between them. Person B becomes jealous and tells Person A that Person C is just playing them around.

So Person A continues on with C and eventually does get played around and Person A apologises to Person B.

The story doesnt end there though. Person A and B become very friendly and again Person A thinks something might happen between A and B. But this time around another Person C turns up (a different person C) that A messes around with and A inevitably gets scorned by B for it. But all the while Person B has been with a Person D - doing exactly to person A, what the original Person C did.

So you’ve probably guessed im Person A already. And its really getting on my nerves how person B has treated me in the past few days. Hyopcrisy pisses me off.
Well to return to my original question, Why do people do these things? Simple, because it suits them. They are selfish and they want everything for themselves even at the cost of others.

Nevermind today can be expected to be a bad one i suspect.
have a good one folks
Phil

new machine

  A long time since my last post again. Good News. I bought a new computer on monday. I say bought, I got it on a financial scheme to pay nothing for 12 months. Of course I’ll pay it off before then. but this means I’m now £1300 in debt. Oh well.
   Its a gorgeous Machine. It’s listed as a media machine. purely because it came with a blue-ray write and High-def monitor. But everything else about it is a gaming machine. Oh did I mention it came with a remote control? Yeah you can watch TV on it, with pre-installed media software, which allows you to hook up an arial and tune into the TV. And the monitor is bigger than my TV lol. sooo. I think I may move my TV out and hook the freeview up to the computer so I can watch TV on the computer.

 I’m not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow (well today technically) I’ve been off since 4pm on Sunday afternoon, so i’ve been a lazy sod for three days essentially. Also I wanna stay home and play with my new computer more.
I’m at work basically for 7 days off the trot. now. loads-money at the end of the month like but still.

And why is it I’m trying to fathom out other people’s relationships when I don’t even have one of my own to contend with the problems and what not with. christ.

Stay safe.
Phil

Holy Wars, Paganism and Cliches

   Odd title right? I’d say its a long story and give you a load of spiel but its not really. Put simply; I’m listening to Holy Wars by Megadeth, I’m looking at books about Norse Paganism on Amazon and Play.com and I’m thinking about Cliche’s

   With mass media and movies and tele-drama’s and stage shows and songs and the list goes on. Is it possible to convey how you feel about someone, be it a deep seated respect or admiration, someone you hold in high or even low esteem or a person you hold great love for without it sounding like a cliche?
   I mean music seems to be the big one for it. Alot of music is about love. Even all these new songs using bloody moronic metaphors…like the song on the new ipod advert for instance - ”I tried to do hand stands for you”…i mean…what the shit? Have song writers ran out of the old cliche’s to use so they are likening everything to love now? “I was trying to change the tyre on my bike and I couldnt help but think of you!”…”I took a pan from the dishwasher and it still had lasagne stuck to the inside and my heart ached for your touch!”…

There’s only one line from a film or song or anything ever that ever really stood out to me. I don’t really want to say it for fear it will become a cliché but I feel I should for the purpose of the discussion.  It’s a line from, believe it or not, Planes Trains and Automobiles. John Candy’s character says of his wife “Love isn’t a big enough word” I couldn’t agree more. I think Love is something which shouldnt be limited by words. Thats not to say it should be so big it should be faceless. I think it is something which has the ability to be beyond measure and still personal. This whole post is my opinion of it proving to some degree my point.

Nevermind I’ve blathered on enough and I keep forgetting what my main point is, which means its time for bed. Also the Conan Soundtrack is making me want to play the game and distracting me.

Todays Reccomendation; A piece of music from the Conan Soundtrack entitled “Riddle of Steel, Riders of Doom, by Basil Poledouris. Search for it on youtube or poke me on msn and I’ll stick it in a sharing folder for you to try out.

Stay Safe Folks
Phil

Where is the Line, and when do I cross it?

  This post is a bit of a wierd one for me. I feel kind of embaressed really, shit some people might get a little wierded out by it themselves.  Basically last week Rebekah showed be a picture of her Polish friend (who’s name is still unknown to me. They can’t pronounce it so they call her Olga) and i’ve found myself thinking about that picture alot. I know its shallow to base my idea of her on her picture alone, but the descriptions Rebekah and Dave have given me sound nice. I’ve mentioned her a few times in conversation now, because I basically dont like asking other people to set me up. You know I was dropping the hints. They probably did get them they might not have. But its gotten to a point now where I’m thinking of the old saying “Shy bairns get ne toys” as they say around here. (for those who dont speak geordie; “Shy children get no toys”) Although - I might have mentioned her a few too many times now. So If I bring her up again, I feel like its going to seem a bit creepy. Like I’m obsessed >_> So, Where is the line? and have I already crossed it?

What else is going on? I’m getting my ticket for Judas Priest and Megadeth bought for my birthday, should be wicked seeing both bands again. Hopefully Priest will be better this time. Last time my friend crapped out on coming with me so I ended up going alone. The experience was still great but it could have been better if I had friends there to Rock with. Hopefully I’ll have my contacts for it before then aswell so I can get into the Megadeth Mosh pits like me and Stan did when we saw em at Download. I’ve also had alot of offers to check out the next unholy alliance tour i think it is, slipknot and Children of Bodom not sure if I can afford it though. I’d put the extra hours in at work but Wrath of the Lich King is coming out in about a month and I’m a total WoW addict….so I probably wont want any extra hours by then to afford it all. Oh wells I’ll get heading to bed and decide whether or not to push the matter tomorrow.

I want to read some more of “The Last Kingdom” by Bernard Cornwell before sleep. I’d highly recommend it if you like Vikings and Saxons etc. Also alot of it is set in the North East in places I know from family days out on Sundays like Bamburgh, Lindisfarne Jarrow and Eoferwic (see if you can figure that one out…hint if you say it quickly it sounds like the “Viking” name for it) So far its a great read.

Stay Safe Folks
Phil.